Chris’s Diary

Chris’s Diary: The day after the end of the play

Dear Diary,
Sometimes I feel that I can’t go on with my life anymore and I’m asking myself, why things are always against me.
I believe in god but since everything happened, I wonder, is there a god? If there is one, how come he is not doing anything to help his true believers?
So many tragedies to one person, one after the other. I feel that I’m losing all my dear ones and I can’t do anything about it.
First, my brother couldn’t bear the fact that our father did what he did and he committed a suicide.
Then, my father couldn’t live knowing that his son killed himself due to his irresponsible behavior and if this is not enough, how can I build a nest of my own with the girl I love, when we both know that my father is responsible to everything that happened to us. I’m not sure I can take it anymore and maybe I should give-up and leave this world the same way my father and brother did.
On the other hand, the remaining of my family, my mother and Ann are so dear to me that I feel that it will be unfair to add another tragedy for them to go through. I’m truly confused and helpless.
I don’t know where to turn and how to proceed with my life from now on.
I have no faith in god anymore after all I have been through.
Dear diary, please show me the path to choose the right thing to do. I love my mother and Ann so much and want to give us all a chance to recover from our disaster. I know I need to be strong for them and for myself, but where can I get the power and courage to overcome this situation?
Hopefully, soon I will be able to proceed with my life. I must be optimistic not only for me but also for my dear ones.