Hi my name is Derrick

Hi, my name is Derrick. I look at the world from a different perspective. From the look, I’m a regular kid I like sports and being with my friends but I’m different from the inside.

my dad and mom always said I was special but I couldn’t see it and it took me 14 years and still in the process to see it.

all my childhood I just looked at myself in the mirror and was terrified to see myself because I thought my face was ugly like my body voice and imagination and I couldn’t look like my idol it wasn’t somebody special for the world only for me it was. my dad, I wanted to talk like my dad with a good voice a convincing one has its body big with muscles a little higher than him like my favorite player Derrick Rose he was 6’2 feet tall and my mom’s imaginations see things other couldn’t see. My dad was white big good looking and funny my mom was black cool big dreamer fighter from soul to blood one you know would steak until the end.

I grew up with good people but couldn’t get along with them

I had one friend in my kindergarten who was black I don’t remember his name he was bigger than me in 1 year I always been with him walking in the streets of my neighborhood it wasn’t dangerous in the day but you knew because of the people who were outside in the nights you shouldn’t walk in the nights every night you could hear the gunshots outside your window my house was in the first floor of the building I was living in it was terrifying hearing it that’s why my parents put me at the farthest room from the door so I could feel safe even though they knew like me it didn’t matter but thanks god nothing happened to us.

back to my kindergarten friend I loved him I truly do I wanted to play with him every day all day basketball but I had him as a friend for only 1 year before I was left alone with no friends in a neighborhood full of night psychos so I said to my mom and dad who wanted to get me and them out of there and in

my head I just remember my mom and dad holding me up and my eyes go blind all white and phoo I’m in another town with no psychos and it’s my time to get friends.

At this point, I was barely five and went through hell with my parents that’s what made though and I learned my family is the closest to me shoutout to J.I.D my favorite rapper at the time.

and its a line from one of his songs back to my family they became the ones to make me stand in the morning and go sleep just to see them tomorrow they became my gang my crew my true meaning of family inside my heart from this day I knew I never going to leave their side on my dead body I’m not leaving them.

back to my new town new house new bed I went to sleep and woke up to a new kindergarten to see new people I met 2 friends and one black girl she reminded me of my mom so I wanted to know her and it was all worth it.

she was amazing.

but I didn’t want to tell her who I am so I didn’t.

one month later people were sick of me and my primitive actions also that same girl I loved was sick of me because I didn’t told her who I was but couldn’t tell her who I’m I was sick of myself how can I talk about myself in a positive way when I cant even look at the mirror and not getting sick of myself so I cried later that day like every other kid and I was sad but had to look forward for my friends who were to accept me and it was that  two kids who later been known to me they will be my best friends non of them like one funny and loveable the other was a fighter until death but man I knew he can easily become one of the people who were under my house in my old city I saw the first action of him acting like them when we were 1st grade he almost pulled my eye out because I got him mad I didn’t want to do what he said to me that’s how it ended my relationship with the kid but I had one more friend I would die for just like for my family even if he didn’t go through my life it was the other kid from my kindergarten the loveable one later that year I had to move school with my friend I didn’t do something bad it’s just what the municipality told to us so we moved now I’m 2nd-grade meeting yet another knew people

who I got along really good in our next 4 years together also I built myself I was ready to tell the world who Im and also that girl but it was too late so I lived with that easily because of the amount of who passed since my kindergarten.

past my first 6 years in school, I’m in middle school and to my surprise, I saw the same girl from 7 years and we were in the same class and it was time to introduce ourselves and finally, after 8 years I can talk about myself so I started and said: “Hi, my name is Derrick”.