All My Sons- The day after the end

My hands are shaking as I am writing this. I can’t wrap my head around what father did. Not just to Larry or Steve or dear Ann, but to mother and I last night. How could he be so selfish?! He said something near the end, how those 21 pilots were by extension of Larry also his sons. And how he failed them. That’s what drove him to do it, that guilt. But what about me? I’m his son. By killing himself he failed me. All those years he lied to himself, justifying his malpractice was for the good of the family. But in the end, all it really was selfishness and cowardice. Yesterday was just like back at the factory in that sense.
I don’t know what will happen now, with marrying Ann. I still love her, and I hope she loves me, but I can’t even begin to figure out what’s going on in her mind. She knows her father is innocent, and that mine is the reason he’s in prison. How will she or her family be able to put their trust in me? After the funeral I’ll sit with her for a talk. For now, I have to take care of mother, we’re the only Keller’s left. She’s so fragile I have to watch over her.