Chris’s truthful diary

Dear Diary, today was the hardest day of my life, the day after my father committed suicide. I haven’t slept all night and felt like it was the longest night of my life. I was in complete disbelief and couldn’t believe what have happened to our family. I asked myself “Was is my fault? Should I have been a little more understanding?”

I came downstairs and looked for mother, it’s just her and I now. I should look after her from now on and take care of her. She keeps telling me to go on and live my life but, how can I?
My father think he did us good by killing himself but he just passed alone his pain and guilt to us.

I know Anne need me and wants to get married but I’m not in the right place mentally right now. I have to process everything and get over the lies I lived with for the last couple years.

I miss Larry and I’m sincerely sorry dad has failed him.