My diary (Chris Keller)

The day Chris returned from the war:
Dear diary,
It’s over – “the war is over” everyone said as soon as I got home,
I understand the happiness of my family and neighbors,
But they don’t know that my inner war is just beginning!
My God!
The things I saw – death, blood, my soldiers being killed!
Why did they died while I’m still alive ?!
As a commander, I was supposed to be in charge of them!
What is difference between me and my soldiers or my brother Larry?
And yes, Larry is dead, right now I will not argue with my mother and father about this – it is the only thing that can hold the family together and give my mother hope during this difficult time,
But at some point the painful truth will be revealed, there is no choice,
Truth is also important in general, but specifically the truth that Larry is dead is affecting my personal life-
I want to get in touch with Ann, she’s Larry’s girl, but we must continue living despite death.

Anyway, as I said, life must go on despite all the difficulties,
In addition, I understand that I am not the only one who went through a difficult experience during the war but also my father, and his business partner Steve (Anne’s father),
They were charged for selling cracked cylinder heads to the army, and because of that- 21 soldiers died.
I believe my father-there is no way he could kill soldiers when his own 2 sons are soldiers-in this I am sure!

I hope Ann contacts me even though her father is in jail and my father isn’t.

The day Anne came to visit:
A calm Sunday morning,
Dear diary, I haven’t written for a long time,
I’ll let you know what happened in the meantime:

I’ve been in a relationship for a long time with Anne, and today she’s coming to visit us.
Last night the tree in the yard fell – Mother believes this tree symbolizes Larry is still alive and although it fell- Larry can not be dead,our neighbor Frank also supports this belief,they are sure Larry is alive.
My father and I, on the other hand, believe that Larry is dead, but dad is a man who prefers to keep the family’s peace and not to cause my mother any grief,
I know that as long as my mother believes he is alive – she will never support my and Anne’s marriage, she believes that Anne belongs to Larry and that he will return.

I really love Ann, I appreciate the fact that Ann loves me and my family even though her father Steve is in prison, and my father is not.

Tonight, Ann’s brother, George, comes to visit us after visiting Steve in prison, me and my family are sure that he probably wants revenge.
He will probably try to prove us that my father is indeed guilty, and that he lied at trial,
Plus, he’ll probably try to prevent Ann from marrying me (and believe me dear diary – Ann is going through hard times anyway! My mother doesn’t support us at all!)
I can see that my mother and father are very stressed for some reason, my mother even warned my father – but I’m sure my father is innocent!
I’ll update you tomorrow how was George’s visit.

The day after the end of the play:
Dear diary, I’m in shock, I don’t know what to do, I never thought emotions could change so much in one day!
At the beginning of the visit George was tense but tried not to argue with my father,
My dad even proposed Steve a job in the factory after he will go out of jail.
The mess has started when we sat down to eat,
George accused my father of being in the factory on the day of the crime, and my father told him it was a mistake because he was sick that day!
But my mother replied that my father had never been ill and was always healthy!
And here the bomb landed – I realised that my father was in the factory that day of the crime!

My father, whom I love so much, and have always supported – is responsible for the death of soldiers in the war!
How is that possible? I’m betrayed.
My father destroyed entire families and lived with it for years without taking responsibility for it!

I don’t remember clearly, but one thing led to another – and it turned out that Ann was saving a letter from Larry –
It is known that Larry is dead, but turns out he committed suicide and flew his plane into the ocean, because he couldn’t handle the fact that father was suspected for killing soldiers!

I told my mother- there is no way to change the past, I don’t want dad to go to jail, I just want to understand how didn’t he take responsibility for the crime?!
What is the difference between the death of other soldiers and the death of his own son? How is he not ashamed?
In a blink of an eye, my father went upstairs – and we heard a gun shot.
I swear to God, I didn’t mean it,

I don’t want my mother to be left alone, I just wanted justice.
All I wanted was to continue living my life after the war, and now everything is lost- Ann, my father, and my family.