All My Sons Act IV

The last couple of weeks have been hard for me and everyone else who has been there when Joe killed himself. I stayed with mom for a couple of days before I left everything I knew and came here, to Cleveland. Since my arrival, I have been trying to adapt myself and start working in the firms here. No luck finding my place here. I have tried to work in a car factory but it reminded me of Joe’s business and I just couldn’t work there. Everywhere I go it reminds me of the bad deeds my father did. It’s so hard for me to continue my life after I left everyone and everything I knew behind me and started in the search for a new life. I still love Ann very much, but it’s hard for me to be with her after all that happened between our fathers. She tried to convince me to take her with me, but I just couldn’t. I don’t know even what I should be doing right now, I still have no work, I have no friends here nor family and I’m so confused.

Maybe I should just try and forget everything that happened and focus on my new life? sounds like a good idea, but there is a minor problem in it. How do I do it? I have so many questions and no answers, I think I should try and consult with somebody that knows me, no, I shouldn’t contact anyone from home. I should go and see a psychologist. It sounds like a good idea.

I went to see a psychologist, it is so expensive but yet, helpful. I did explain everything that happened during the past days. She could understand what I am going through and she even recommended me take Ann with me so I will have someone dear close to me. the thing is that I don’t know if it’s a good idea. Maybe I should write her a couple of things and ask her if she wants to join me for a new life, I know she loves me and I hope we will get well together and will forget everything that happened between our fathers.

about a week passed after I wrote here, the mail service is so good here, she already answered me, and she told me that she loves me a lot and she wants to join me, and so she does, she arrives today at 8:30 P.M and I will pick her up from the airport. Finally, things are getting well. I got a great job in a factory that makes advanced chips for new machines, I actually know the manager there, he fought with me in the war, he was in charge of one of our supporting companies. And now I can be sure that I’m working in a fair place, which wouldn’t do such things as my father did. I’m excited to meet Ann again and start our new life here, together. I hope we will do only good things and that we will be together and live a good life.